The last week or two has been filled with busyness beyond belief. (What a wonderful alliteration!) From flying out to family for a celebration of life, to work obligations, it all feels like I'm spinning more plates than I can handle. Everyone wants my time and I just want to keep it for myself. It has become quite apparent that I need to start giving my time to those who need it and deserve it most. For example, my homework, assistantship, and me will be the first to get their share. It is only fair. The priorities of graduate student in Student Affairs requires this in my opinion.
Part of the reason my time seems so valuable is the treacherous job search ahead of me. Each meeting we have with professionals, the more this aspect is being pushed. I am applying for jobs, but they make it sound like I won't find one until I apply to 80+ positions. How many times can I write my address and qualifications before I obtain carpal tunnel? As I apply to these jobs, I'm thinking about what my life could look like in this new location. I have never lived outside of the Midwest and many jobs that interest me are in the Southwest region. None of my family members are there and I haven't even visited. It is not that I expect these places to be a wonderful dream land, I'm just curious.
The longer I job search, the more I feel myself growing up. I've worked in a full time position before and lived in my own apartment, but that doesn't feel real now. I almost wonder what's happening to me? Am I ready to completely on my own? Am I ready to live away from my greatest support system for the adventure and experiences of a lifetime? My first answer is, yes. Yes, I am ready to use all of the skills I have attained and will attain to be successful. My second answer is maybe. Maybe I'll be so frustrated and homesick I'll move home after only a year. My last answer is, I don't know. I won't know until I try. So that's what I'll set out to do...try.
What's happening to me is life. Go with it.
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